I went 2 to 3 miles away from home in a couple of seconds. I was frustrated because the time it was going to take me to get back and go back to sleep I could be using it to sleep. I have been concerned about catching up on sleep and getting plenty of it since I finished college. And now here I was; I guess I could go back home the way I got here, by holding on to a car that was driving in that direction, but no that’s too dangerous. Then I realized that the amount of distance I had covered in such small amount of time was ridiculous, and so I also realized I was dreaming.
“Ok, good. I don’t have to worry about going to sleep because I am already asleep, awesome. I also noticed that my worrying about going to sleep didn’t let me feel like I was resting… anyways, so I was lucid dreaming. “What do you want to do Jimmy? You can’t miss out on this opportunity. Do you want to go in that house across the street and rape whoever is in there? I bet you can find a nice young girl to seduce.” “Nah, it doesn’t even sound exciting anymore.” I usually like to lucid dream because I could do whatever I want, but since I have been trying to get rid of my desires these days I felt like nothing I did would be fulfilling, there was nothing I really wanted to do. “What’s the point of doing anything? None of it is worthwhile anyways.” So I just decided to sit on the sidewalk and wait for me to wake up. As I was walking towards the curb I noticed a bat on the tree by me. It clumsily made its way towards the ground and stood there, it was the size and the shape of Garfield or Cheshire cat, but it was all black. It looked scary and I was concerned about what it might do to me, but I didn’t worry about anything because it was a dream anyway.
Its eyes were kept closed and as it grinned it looked like it was about to say something, but then I noticed that I had inhibitions to help the people across the street bring in their groceries into their house, because I thought it might be kind of awkward. I felt like a failure, I never endorse having inhibitions or responding to them, and here I am having inhibitions IN A DREAM? And so I went up to those people to practice being awkward, I stood in front of the guy that was getting out the stuff out of his black car, and stared at his face… after a good few seconds I said, “Hi, you need any help?” And then I did the same with one of the other people. A bus hit one of the Karts that had groceries in them (I think this one was full of peeled potatoes and carrots) and so I got my board to go after them. Then I woke up.
I woke up; the clouds look beautiful out the door. On my way to the bathroom, I realized that I got completely distracted by my desire to get rid of my inhibitions; I could have sat on the curb with Cheshire bat and have meditated or something. I could have probably had that experience again where I “see the sleep” that I had a couple of nights ago. I guess I should do this “falling deeper into myself” thing more often.
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